Breath & Shadow

Spring 2021
Volume 18, Issue 2

"A Time of Poppies"

Written By

Sharmon Gazaway

As we round the bend, Cole brushes my hand and points out the window. “Look, Paige.” An acre field that was green the last time I saw it—a week, week and a half ago?—has exploded into a frilly extravagance of poppies. I’m not prepared for the paisley quilt of red, white and pink. What a waste of God’s energy—He could put it to so much better use.

"Echo"

Written By

Virginia Betts

A web waves in the warm breeze,

caught between ancient wooden struts,

indefensible, beneath an empty seat.

It splays to breaking point;

fine-knit, like a fiber-glass veil;

delicate strength resisting air.

"Fireworks'

Written By

Caitlin Cacciatore

trust me when I say

we held so tight to that last vestige

of peace - it fled from our hands

like a bird set free


our fingers clenched into fists

at the loss of the only love

we’d ever known.

"Hand Signals"

Written By

Carol Farnsworth

I sit quietly, the only sound is the hum of the Oxygen concentrator beside the bed. I gently hold Helen’s hand. Her hand is cool, soft to the touch. It rests limp in my hand. I study the hand veined with blue lines and wrinkles. I turn the hand palm up to trace the long life line extending past the wrist. The hand is rough with dry skin. I reach for hand cream and rub some into her palms.

"Necessary Discomfort: A Review of ‘Disability Visibility: First-Person Stories
From The 21 st Century’"

Written By

Chris Kuell

When I heard about activist Alice Wong’s anthology ‘Disability Visibility: First-Person Stories From The Twenty-First Century”, I knew it was something that should be reviewed in Breath and Shadow. After all, our primary mission is to help get the voices of writers with disabilities out into the world. And since I’d just finished ‘Talking to Strangers’ by Malcolm Gladwell, and generally like to keep a nonfiction book going at all times, I decided I’d be the one to review it.

"On Falling"

Written By

Despy Boutris

I am always sure

                    that the world is ending.

          And I’m always searching

my body for wounds,

                              always sure

                    that everything is dying,

that this gull

                    plunging toward the sea

          is like me, determined

to die by falling

"Presenting Well: The Mental Health Catch-22"

Written By

Lindsey Morrison Grant

It's to my detriment and chagrin... and perhaps will even to be written upon my tombstone, "She presents well."


My early childhood trauma from numerous hospitalizations happened before I had the understanding, let alone the words to process the pain and terror. Instead, it triggered

combative tantrums in doctors' offices, in the hospital, at the smell of isopropyl alcohol or even the glimpse of white coats. That was my truth in the time of "Children should be seen and not heard." I wasn't heard, so I internalized the angst and created my own survivalist credo: You must not be sick. If you appear sick, you will be abandoned.

"Requiem"

Written By

Susan M. Silver

Across a naked night, in waves of peace

And pain, your music returns, granite rhythm,

Haunting harmony and melody,

Peerless phrases unreplicable

Hugging the whole of myself, as in life.

"Restraint"

Written By

Lisa Reynolds

I know she’s going to do it even before she does. I can tell by the way she zones in on my cane.


If my husband were here, he’d call her, “nosey” and tell her to bugger off.


I’m more tolerant. Most days.


Today isn’t like most days though. Today, I learned that my illness is getting worse, not better.

"Salvage"

Written By

Mark A. Murphy

We have learned to dispense with the body in favor of our cerebral journeying to the collapsed star’s interior


beyond event horizon

and the natural laws of gravity, defying God and cosmic pendulum to discover the absolute at the center of being.

"Sideswipe"

Written By

Susan Eve Haar

My Mom calls it Russianizing. And I’m thinking she must be Russian, because she’s so good at pretending and ignoring things. She says the rewriting of past history is something Russians are really good at. Like you get electrocuted so that your body smokes and your guts cave in, and they’ll say you’d passed away in your sleep. Passed is another fake word. Maybe when I go out it’s like passing, I sure am gone. Maybe there’s a place where I go, maybe all the epileptics hang together, the ones who’re having seizures in some kind of extraterrestrial chat room.

"Sometime Between Breakfast and Lunch"

Written By

Erica Mones

My friends were irritated before we even entered Red Emma’s. They were shocked that the only viable entrance for us was through the side door (which was lined with bars). They continued to discuss this when we were seated. They were shocked about accessibility or lack thereof in their beloved city, as if it was outside the realm of possibility for disabled people to face segregation in 2019.


Thinking of what I would eventually have to order, I was tempted to order a drink, but there were only IPAs and wine on the menu. Rodlyn unsurprisingly ordered an IPA. From time to time, I would hope she noticed my anxiety.

"This Fading Flower"

Written By

J. Elliott Toren

While you stand over me, pausing in this dimly lit bar, I suddenly hold forever in the palm of my hand.

 

I see our future.


I hear your name: Miranda. I see the child we will have together. I see you taking your own life during postpartum depression. I see myself and our little girl, forging on alone. 


I see your future without me. You wither and die like a flower in the cold, sooner even than had I not sent you away. But if I choose you, I choose happiness for you, even if only for a moment.

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