Breath & Shadow
Summer 2024 - Vol. 21, Issue 1
A Moment
written by
Paula Finn
I long to catch a moment—
an earthy, fleshy slice of life
and hug it hard
until its essence bursts and bathes me.
But my mind is always whirring—
skipping ahead to anticipated doom,
or slamming sharply into Rewind
to retrieve a long-passed conversation
I suddenly need to dissect.
I long for a moment—
on a clammy day in the Pacific Northwest,
nestled in a roomy vinyl booth
at a college-town café…
while outside,
rainbow pieces sparkle
through darkly feathered clouds…
swirling my cocoa’s whipped cream,
drinking in my companion’s talk
about science,
politics,
or anything—
without the tape fast forwarding
to whether I’ll sleep tonight…
Or maybe a steaming bath—
leaning back to rest my head
against the cool porcelain,
as once-proud oil beads float
like shriveled grape skins,
their magic spent on silken ripples.
As the perfumed water cradles me,
I let my thoughts drift into dreams…
Or maybe a moment where I allow myself
to read for pleasure.
The simplest things are the hardest.
I can imagine a moment,
but I can’t make it mine.
I’ve lived too long in my head.
I’m tired.
I need to stop the tape.
Or at least…
put it on Pause.
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Paula Finn is the author of Sitcom Writers Talk Shop: Behind the Scenes with Carl Reiner, Norman Lear, and Other Geniuses of Television Comedy. She’s written nonfiction for magazines and blogs including HuffPost, Newsweek, Writer’s Digest, and Script magazine. She’s authored ten gift books and has licensed her inspirational writings worldwide on popular gift products; her inspirational quotes can be found on X. She's a Summa Cum Laude UCLA graduate.