I want to believe
That love is blind
And the world is kind
And that we all have time
To fall in love.
But that’s a lie.
I want to be loved
For who I am
Despite what I am
By someone who doesn’t give a damn
About the outside.
But that’s not going to happen.
I want to walk
With my head held high
And turn the eye
Of every guy
In the room towards me.
I want to be beautiful.
I want to be shallow.
I don’t care if they love me for what’s on the inside,
Because first they have to like me for what’s on the outside.
If the outside’s not for keeps,
No one’s going to want to dig too deep.
And I want to hate you
For the way you made me.
But I don’t know your face,
Don’t know your name,
I don’t even know if you exist.
But I need you to be a part of my life,
Because even though I blame you,
It’s still easier
To believe that I’m one of your creatures,
Than to know that I’m just a freak of nature
Shawna Borman holds an M.F.A. from the University of Southern Maine’s Stonecoast program. Though she dabbles in all genres, her true love is horror. Whether dealing with your average socially awkward serial killer or an angel/demon/mortal hybrid entering the terrible teens, Shawna is most at ease visiting with the voices in her head. She resides in Texas with her father. For more information and links to her social media profiles, please visit her website!